Cygne’s Blog

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FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

That was somewhat thearputic…

Selfish People  confuse me. They take, take and take. I have no problem with helping out a friend, of being there to listen but when a “friend” drains you of everything and never even asks how you are, you wonder if its worth it. Friendship is meant to be a two-way street. I amn’t a thearpist, I don’t get paid to have you talk at me. At times one friend will need to lean more on the other which I understand but constant going on and on about yourself, when you are aware that the other person is also needing support is beyond selfish. I’m exhausted from listening and from supporting selfish people, who don’t care about me. And I just can’t understand how anyone can be that self involved, who can’t see past themselves to even ask a friend how their life is, in over three months would you not once stop and wonder why you know nothing about what is going on in their life? 

Alot of people confide in me and then expect me to deal with the problem and solve it for them. WHY put it on me, I have enough to deal with it. What is it about my persona that makes people think they can lump

Automatic greeting “Hi, How are you?” or something to that affect. Be it face-to-face, facebook, text or msn that is the usual way in which to start a conversation. Most of the time the “How are you?” is just automatic not needing a proper response but when someone leaves it out continuously it is noticed. I have a “friend” who, if asked, would not be able to tell you genuinely how I am or what I have been up to in the last three months, yet ask the same about her of me and I could tell you EVERYTHING down to the last minute detail. 

I am aware that at different times in a friendship one person needs to lean more on the other but that does not mean that the person needing help completely forgets to ask about the others life. 

She always has some complaint, some need for sympathy and as much as I want to be there for her it has become draining and exhausting. I, myself, have quite a few worries and problems at the moment and am grateful to my friends who put up with me and listen to me, but I NEVER forget to ask them about their life and am conscious that the world does not revolve around me. SHE on the other hand is so self involved it hurts. She begins all her MSN conversations with “hi” that’s it, it shows how little she cares she doesn’t even ask the generic “how are you?” The day of my friends month mind I had her texting me about her problems (she was aware of the day  as I couldn’t go to an organised event due to it) and the following day she was the same, not one single word of condolence or a hint of concern. 

I am so angry at her selfcentredness, doesn’t it ever cross her mind that she has no idea what is going on in my life, doesn’t she care? The longer this goes on the more resentment I feel and the angrier I get. 

She is a leech sucking every last particle of energy and happiness I have out of me, I have told her she should go see a thearpist but she says she couldn’t talk at them. But she can talk at me? If it was a give and take relationship I wouldn’t mind but I am NOT her thearpist, I am NOT paid to listen to her. Giving with no return is exhausting and unfair. 

How are some people just so selfish!

-Because I want to.

So walk a little slower 
and open up your eyes 
sometimes its so hard to see 
the good things pass you by 
There may never be a sign 
no flashing neon light 
tellin you to make your move 
or when the time is right

-Hilary Duff –Why Not